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Boyfriend showed me this video. Now I'd like to blog about it.

Ok, I've always been an avid supporter of plastic surgery. From Xiaxue, to Leng Yei, I always have been. I admire those who are brave enough to endure pain to change something about themselves. To modify, and upgrade themselves.

This was my English Oral topic by the way LOL.

I have always hated my nose! And I know my first paycheck will go to my nose job fund! No car, not house, not clothes, but my nose. My nose is not cute, or okay. It is fugly, and not what I wanted. So if your argument is that I can't choose what features to be born with, my parents gave me this face, then yes I agree. But I CAN choose to artificially modify it, can't I?



I mean. If you have the money and freedom to do it, do it. Not because of boyfriend, peer pressure or anything, but for yourself.

I quote from some random blog I read long ago, there are 3 types of people in the world.

First person did plastic surgery and is proud and happy to admit it. Second person did it and denies it (like Dawn). Third person is a person who didn't do it but hates how she looks and is forever complaining.

Honestly is plastic surgery that much different than someone who makes up every day. My mum herself has tattooed eyebrows and eyeliner. Because she said, no difference since she does eyebrows and eyeliner everyday. If I am the kind of girl who shades her nose and spends hours drawing eyeliner to make eyes bigger etc, then why not just do it? There is no difference since makeup also makes you look different than the original face you were born with, and no one is ever going to see your original face underneath the constant makeup anyways. No difference with surgery at all.

All I can say is, I'm looking forward to having a beautiful nose. People may tell me I am beautiful the way I am, but I myself is not satisfied. And when I do it, regardless of pain or prejudice, I'll be very proud of it and love myself a lot more!

Labels: Wisdom in Rain

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&the time is 6:31 AM
posted by Ena ♥

Sometimes I feel like I'm a failure at everything.

I mean, the only thing that I have in my favour is studies. The only thing which is worth anything of all in me is that. It's the only thing I'm good at. I'm good at Geography. I'm good at Biology. I'm good at studying and memorising and taking tests. That is all.

I sometimes feel like I'd be Nobita if I didn't have studies in my favour. If you've ever watched Doraemon, you'll know if this sad loser called Nobita who fails in everything he does. Which is almost like me.

You know how they say everyone is good in at least one thing? No one is ever bad at everything? It's true, but what if one day I lose this only thing I'm "good" at?

I suck at every single athletic activity. I lose at every competitive activity, be it badminton, or bowling, or running. I have horrible reflexes, I suck at video games, I can't drive, I'm not alert enough to realise a bear is about to eat me. I can't drive to save my life, and my balance is so bad that I can't ride a bike, or swim.

Not only that. I'm not good at Tetris, Sudoku, even Chess. I can't paint nor have any artistic skill (except shopping LOL.) I can't sing, and my coordination, as said, is so bad that I can't even remember left from right hence I can't dance. I have no musical talent and I can't play any instrument. I don't bake (would probably suck at it) and I don't sew, I can't do ANYTHING at all well.

I don't know, I just take it seriously. I wish I could be the best in everything. Some people are naturally good at everything, you know? I'm jealous. Even during a casual game of bowling with friends, when I lose I feel like a huge failure.

Nothing comes naturally to me. Except studying. And my writing. That's all. I can't even play video games when my boyfriend asks me to, 'cause I'm so bad that I'd only feel awful when I can't do it.

You might call it my own negative mentality and my own disability to step out of my comfort zone. I should try new things and practice. But I just wish I could be naturally good at something else. It's a bit discouraging and disheartening when a person who is say, learning to swim for the first time with you, manages to learn while you don't. It's what discourages me from going ice skating, or play tennis with others. Sure, it's your first time too, but you don't know how bad I am. How embarassing it is when everyone can already master it yet you still can't cause you suck so much.

I just take it seriously. I am one of the only who finds driving difficult. I have no sense of direction even. I used to rationalize and make excuses that oh my car is too hard to drive, and so on. Maybe I'm just bad at it. I'm not really creative either, nor a public speaker/debater or whatsoever good enough to call it a gift of mine.

Can't you see? I'm not good at anything besides.. Well, doing well in tests. Do you really want that? It's all I have.. The ability to memorise random facts in books. What if I'm smart, get a good degree, yet fail to find a job? Can I use my other skills (say, painting, creative skills) to find another job in another field, like advertising or whatsoever? No. All I have is a piece of paper saying hey this girl can memorise her Bio book well, kudos to her but you're not getting a job from here.

Aimless and directionless life.

Labels: Sad in the Rain

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&the time is 8:01 AM
posted by Ena ♥

DISCLAIMER: There are over 40 shots of me. camwhoring. nonstop. sick of keeping it and decided to upload all online, so please spare your eyes.

 

So yea. Here are a few shameless shots after curling. Though I have to say now I'm a little disappointed. I mean it's still curly but with less volume. And when I washed it, it was really, really thin. I used to have thick, voluminous locks and now it's layered till only the top has hair and the lower part has a small tail that is all. I know you have to layer it if not your curls will be too puffy, but I just think it's a little too much.. I can't tie my hair into a bun or ponytail anymore because it is way too thin. My previous ponytail used to be a solid, thick mane of luscious hair which was heavy, hard to wash, but ultimately my preference ( I prefer thick healthy hair than thin, lank hair).





I suppose it's more manageable and I don't have to tie it up so much as before when it used to make me feel overheated and get caught up in doors, car doors, elevators, etc, but now I can't do a proper bun or hairstyle which is sad!!! :(

And I feel sad and sorry for all my hair scattered all on the floor :'(

I love the curls though, it looks thick, only it isn't LOL so I guess it's fine unless it's touched.

Anyways pictures! Now don't blame me for being too lazy to edit all the pictures! It's not true k. I only use 3 filters so I thought it would be monotonous to look at them (albeit I'd rather no one look closely at all these pictures of my face) so I alternated between edited lighting and unedited. And no fake nose jobs here either LOL





Tried straight fringe. blerghh

 



 

 



ok i look washed out here.

 



purely for the boyfriend's satisfaction.

 



mum photobomb.

 



tried to wink for boyfriend. LOL he's the main reason I attempted these poses

 




Just wanted to feel like a little girl again. LOL fyi I never do this hairstyle out. Too cutesy.

 





Ahhh. Boyfriend's favourite pose: constipation face.

 



I love the lighting! And the colours. Hence unedited.

 



 



 

 



These are edited.

 



 



 



Didn't know these were blurred. Sorry.

 



 

Was in Padini's fitting room. HAD TO CAMWHORE.



Point here: this post is about hair, not face/expressions.

 



 



the boyfriend's current profile picture.

 







Ah ah lien picture for your benefit. YES I KNOW HOW IT LOOKS. I just like how my lenses reflect here :)

 



Me and mummy!



Me and mummy #2!

 



 

These are pictures after eyebrow plucking haha.



 

Yes my favourite Stitch shirt MOCK ME IF YOU WANT.

 

take note the eyebrows!! Haha this is post wash :)

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&the time is 8:37 AM
posted by Ena ♥

I got my hair permed for the first time in 18 years today! And I have no regrets! I love it. It's not high maintenance lah (I wouldn't know LOL only had it for 4 days) but I'm loving it! No more fuss than say, putting on deororant before going out?

I'm so pleased with it! I've had people come up to me and say "Cantiknya rambut kamu amoi!" and random salesman in town come up to me LOL not sure he's hamsap or what but yay I'm so happy to have compliments on my hair!



Before!



Goodbye straight hair!



Haircut!



Dada camwhoring LOL





Rollers in place :)







Towels so we don't get burned :)



The alien looking digital perm machine.



yep, up to 120 celcius.





Lazy to rotate. Just me trying to see how it looks.



This is how much hair they hacked off me. Seriously I have so much hair it's scary.



After perming. Was so frizzy and dry I was scared ;(



On to my touch up!



She's done and camwhores.





Mavis!!





Scalp stung like a bitch. Looks fugly but yeah, whatever LOL.







Volume!






Da!









haha this was on saloon day! Please don't hate me as I am going to continue with my permed hair camwhores soon LOL

When the day was over I had this huge headache. My chronology was like this:

Wash

Blow

Cut

Perm

Wash

Blow

Dry

Dye

Wash

Blow

Style

And my poor scalp hurt from all the tugging, heat and chemicals :(

But gosh it was so nice and fluffy! :)

Labels: Daily Rain, Vain and Bimbotic in the Rain

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&the time is 12:51 PM
posted by Ena ♥