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Wednesday, March 21, 2012
When I Can't Sleep At Night..
i can't sleep. at night a thousand memories runs through my head - the first time we texted and how many laughs we got, the first time you called me, how you told Guo Unn you think you found the one just a day after you met me.

I remember the first time we cuddled in the car at college and how wonderful it felt to feel your arms around me. Slowly, I got used to it. What happened? How after we sort of frenched for the first time you asked me, "Did we just French kiss? haha maybe that's why I want you more =) ."

After it's all over, the magic of the first few months now haunts me at night. How we PDA-ed at Pyramid and how nice it felt to have your hand in mine, that magic spark when I hugged you everytime. How I leaned into you. The times when we went to Genting, when I first met your friends. The countless times you kissed me goodnight. Tumblr pictures.

I remember that video I made for you. How after you watched it you said you'd stay. How after that you said you'd try when I already knew it wasn't going to work. How we stopped the games and broke up for real.

I can't help the tears from falling.. I tried to bring in the bad memories. How I couldn't stand it whenever you liked to bring dirty innuendos in every innocent conversation. How you nagged me and got angry at me for pinching you. That one time when you tried to take advantage of me when I was drunk. I'm trying to hate you, trying to recall the things we don't have in common, trying to remember all the anger and fights. How you valued friendship more than me. How you always thought period pain was nothing. How you never tried to connect to my friends.

But all I remember is how complete it was to have you next to me in bed, how lonely it is now.

I guess I really miss you.

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