We used to go out every day. We used to smile whenever we saw each day, move closer for a hug and to hold hands. Everytime, I just want to go back to that beautiful moment. I just want to ask you if we can try again and recapture what has been lost before it’s gone forever. I just want to feel that happy as I used to, like a fairytale, which I took for granted.
But I know it’s foolish, and that no matter how much I want it, you can’t try again and go back. Because you don’t feel that way anymore, you don’t miss me anymore. You don’t want me anymore. You don’t want to see me, to talk to me. You have walked away, and left me with all the memories. You have left me, all alone now with no one to break my fall.
How I wish that you would still care.. But not one action of yours has shown that to me at all. If anything bad happens to me, there’s nothing but coldness or ignorance from you. How I miss those days when all I had to do was sound slightly down before you would keep calling me and asking me what was wrong.
I used to not be able to go a day without seeing you. Even today, no matter how painful it is, I have to see you at least once. I haven’t smelled you for a long time now. I miss your scent, the way your eyes crinkle at the corners when you smile at me. I love how you’d hold me against your chest and I would always try to hear your heart beat. I miss how well our hands fitted in each others’, how comfortable it was to lie in the crook of your arms. How in the end, I trusted you, and in the end, it was all ashes.
I always thought you were different. I still do. I still think you are different. But are you? Im hoping for one day, one time, when finally the heavens will show me mercy and let me feel your warm embrace once again. I love you.. Words that mean nothing to you now, but everything to me.
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posted by Ena ♥
