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Tuesday, November 1, 2011
I Know
I wonder what it is about me that prevents others from forming attachments to me. It's like there's some huge barrier around me.

I mean, sure I'm friendly. People talk to me, laugh, hang out, but ultimately, when it comes to choosing a lab partner or taking BFF shots or so on, they don't call me. I'm always "the friend" never the best friend.

I think it's partly my own doing. I dislike doing anything clingy or cheesy. I don't know why. I never make the effort to send a text ( wanna go for lunch?) when I do I feel desperate and annoying and so on so I don't. I wait for people to ask me, and when they don't I just slink away. No wonder I don't have any real attachments. I don't commit to anything, not even a fucking friendship.

Some days I wish I was more normal.

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