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Tuesday, January 11, 2011
WHY CAN'T I LET GO??
Why am I still so stubborn and stupid?? Why don't I just let go? Why do I keep blaming and hurting myself?

THERE IS NOTHING MORE I CAN DO TO MAKE A DIFFERENCE.

HE DOESN'T EVEN CARE, HE DOESN'T REMEMBER YOU, HE DELETED YOU FROM LIKE EVERYTHING. HE DOESN'T WANT TO HEAR FROM YOU AGAIN.

HE'S HARSH BECAUSE HE WANTS ME TO MOVE ON AND LEAVE HIM ALONE.

I'm not going to say all the, a guy who truly loves me wouldn't have ignored my cries, a guy who truly cares wouldn't have given up on me, because that was my fault. Promises are made to be broken. He promised me he would never leave, but he had a limit.

I'm just making myself look stupid by not giving up on him. What I'm doing is making him regret even meeting me, and I SHOULD STOP LIVING IN THE PAST and remember I'm wasting my time while he is out there having fun.

I treated him like crap and I'm sorry. I pushed him away and I'm sorry. But he doesn't think I'm worth the trouble anymore. HE HATES MY FUCKING GUTS. So I should stop wallowing in my self pity and just MOVE ON AND BE HAPPY WITHOUT HIM.

Life doesn't stop because of this.

A piece of advice:
You want advice?
Give up.
You lost him, it's over. It. Is. O V E R.
So you're sorry?
I'm sure you are, but that's what you call making a mistake. You learn from it and grow. Move on and take what you've learned here so that the next time you come across a decent guy you don't run him off with drama and accusations rooted in your own insecurity. Just because you're sorry doesn't mean you automatically get a do-over and he should come running back to you. If you were worth the trouble to him, he would consider it, but he knows its a done deal. He closed the book on you and I suggest you do the same on him.
And:

Sometimes the hardest thing to do is let go. You have to now. Nothing you can do is going to make any difference and is just going to make you feel worse. Don't accept all the blame for the relationships failure, it takes 2 to make or break a relationship. He's probably deleted you because you're not letting go. He's being harsh for the same reason. It's time to move on and love yourself. The only way you're going to get over this is if you can forgive yourself and stop hating yourself so much. You have no control over how he acts but you do have control over yourself.


P.S this is a motivational post. Dammit I wish I could STOP CARING AND STOP CRYING AND LET GO. so sick of myself.


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