School is pretty stressful enough nowadays. Too much homework, and all that. Nothing is going how I want it to go. At the risk of sounding emo, sometimes I just feel like I'm drowning and nothing is what I want it to be.

Going through a rough patch now. I don't know what the fuck is happening to me. I feel so freaking bipolar.

A little help here? I can't breathe and all I need is a hand to lift me up :(
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&the time is 4:08 PM
posted by Ena ♥

Dedicated to Clare. A makeup crap-post.

Ok. I don't know where to start. I'm not like pro in makeup. And I'm trying to lessen my usage cause I scared long term use will change my face colour. NOT KIDDING.

Eyeliner and blusher are my essentials. And mascara on my lower lashes. I no need mascara on my upper lashes cause they're so short anyway.

Eyeliner doesn't look fierce if applied on both upper and lower eyelids contrary to popular belief. In fact, sometimes without eyeliner top and bottom it is just weird. Depends on your eye shape or how thick you put. But better if you put on both top and bottom =D Unless you're lazy. I use liquid on top and pencil on the bottom. I SUCK AT EYESHADOW.

Oh, and eyebrows. Always pluck them. Unless you're lazy. Then get bangs.

Wait I want do homework now. Will add pictures later.
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&the time is 2:48 PM
posted by Ena ♥

Form 5 is still the same..a shitload of homework. So far I'm still doing all my homework (the edge is still there) but I'm wearing thin and getting left behind. I am the laziest person I know, I don't even get out of bed to switch on the fan, I just let myself sweat cause lazy. I would never do laundry if I lived on my own, and I am a huge procrastinator.

Just got back from dinner with bf. Ahahahaha I know you follow my blog. =.= I just found out.
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&the time is 12:31 AM
posted by Ena ♥

A thousand and one assignments.

I think not being able to use the word "Allah" is ridiculous because simply, there is no law against it. As long as we don't ridicule the word it's ok what. Blah stupid government. Burning churches did the trick. Oh I hear the ISA coming at me. Might as well I admit that I burned some of them right now. Bet those monkeys don't get sarcasm.

I am so dead tireddddddd
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&the time is 9:27 PM
posted by Ena ♥

Not in a very good mood.
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&the time is 10:23 PM
posted by Ena ♥

I can't wait for Chinese New Year!!

I just had a major shopping spree. Well, not major as in I bought a lot, but I shopped for more than 3 hours in the same boutique trying on a few truckful of clothes.

I have the awesomest shoes ever! Suede shoes with fringe. Greyyyy. Very Very pretty.



I can't wait for CNY to wear my new clothes.

So far I've bought:
1. A blue dress
2. A black dress
3. A red dress
4. A pink babydoll top
5. A purple babydoll top
6. A tube top
7. A pair of shorts
8.Suede shoes
9. Two push up bras

All my necklaces and makeup are all bought. Now I'm going to purchase/look for

1.Skinny jeans
2.A T shirt
3. Sandals
4. Makeup remover
5. A bag
6. A jacket
7. Hair extensions
8. New lens

Weeeeeeee I'm so high from shopping! =D

P.S Can't wait for Valentine's Day too. =) ♥
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&the time is 10:05 PM
posted by Ena ♥

My title so random LOL.






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&the time is 1:50 PM
posted by Ena ♥

Unfairness. Politics. Favoritism.

Been scolded for everything head to toe already. Hard to stand. It's quite unfair I see, though some prefects try to be fair.

I can't use lens. Etc say I dye hair but I didn't.

Gotta look around before start to say people. Who else is doing the same thing? I feel so targetted. Or am I just soi?

How come whatever I do is in the spotlight? Even when I don't talk or blog about it.

Sucks when you're not a quiet student.

PS: A lot of coincidences lately. It's so weird. Like

• seeing a guy you used to know a few years back for 3 times straight suddenly, at different places, i.e. Spring, steamboat, etc
• finding a note in my Math book written by my senior about me HOHOHO what a huge coincidence
• going with tuition with, AND SITTING BEHIND, someone I never thought and never wanted to meet
  

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&the time is 7:45 PM
posted by Ena ♥

I miss the holidays. An understatement. Now my brain is constantly in confusion. =(

I miss sleeping till late. I miss work. I miss going out. I miss my nails. I miss seeing him. I miss being free.

Now gotta tough up and face it. =(
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&the time is 7:36 PM
posted by Ena ♥

School is tomorrow, and for the first time I really, really don't want to go. Every year I moan about school but I'm always glad to go back. Sort of.

Now I'm just full of this deep regret and fear. I don't want to grow up, I don't want to face SPM, I don't want school drama, I don't want homework, I don't want to study, I don't want to wake at 6 everyday, I don't want to start my last year as a student.

This is the year, I'm in FORM5.

Tuition today was a reality shock. More tuitions to come.

Going to miss spending time with him and my friends. Need to scrub off nails and all now. Urgh.

HATE THEM FOR NOT LETTING ME GO OUT FOR ON THE LAST DAY OF HOLIDAYS.
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&the time is 3:57 PM
posted by Ena ♥

I have tuition on Sunday. Two tuitions, one in the morning, one in the evening.

I have tuition on Monday. Alone. I hate my life. No more go out.

How am I going to do my homework and all? Can die liao.

Today went to school to register. Turns out a lot of people reserved seats. A few of us were indignant. Teacher said "She'll see." So hypocrite as I am, (as we all are) we also go reserve seat.

I'm going to school at 6.10 am on Monday. I SWEAR.

Nostalgic today as I stepped into school. I guess I feel I own the school. We all do..WE'RE SENIORS!!

Hopefully we are sucked up to. I could do with some bootlicking =)

SICK.
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&the time is 10:17 PM
posted by Ena ♥

Webcammmmm! =D I am vain!!












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&the time is 5:39 PM
posted by Ena ♥

It's been ages since I last poured out my feelings. I have since lost the ability to rant and still maintain the ambiguity of the person I am ranting about. Well, Happy New Year 2010 to all the readers.

It's been an awesome year, 2009, and now here I am with 2009 behind me, writing my first blog post of the year. I am also eating laksa for the first time this year.

Love is in the air. Seriously, everywhere I see. There was this breakup season where practically every long term relationship I knew of ended, but now new people are in love or got back together. LOVE IS UNPREDICTABLE. As long as we're happy, who cares?

I wish I had dyed my hair blond. I think if I did I would be chio-er than a model. HA. Now I have to wait a year before I can. I wish I had partied more, consumed more alcohol. I hate that my practical side kept me subdued for most of the holidays.

Now, with only a few days left of the holiday =(

Now it's nonstop hectic hell all the way to SPM, then to our uncertain futures. Cheers to that, because no matter what I know I'll have you all by my side .

xoxo
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&the time is 3:57 PM
posted by Ena ♥