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Sunday, October 18, 2009
Ena's Gone Emo
Sometimes I think, I spend my whole life just trying to prove myself to people. And then I look back, and I wonder what I have achieved in my 16 years?

I've never been pretty, never been popular. Never been talented, never been artistic, or musical, or a boy magnet or anything.

All I've got is academic excellence, which I don't even call brains because it's not really brains. And now, I feel like everything I've worked hard for my whole life is going down the drain.

It's all my own fault, I've never paid attention, but now I feel like I've let myself and everyone down.

This year, no awards, no prizes. No nothing. People will be looking DOWN on me. I used to be smart, now look at me, all DUMBED DOWN.

Everything I have is falling apart. All I have that makes me feel like I am not a complete waste of space, it's all going away, and when that's all gone, I'm just going to be an unsignificant, unimportant blip in this world, with no credit and no achievement to my name.

I am a failure.

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