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Monday, August 10, 2009
I Got 86 For Maths!!! Sobs
Today I woke up with fever, headache, flu, sore throat, joint pain and cough. The complete set of symptoms. Mum asked me no to go but I did anyway. I figured that

If I don't go because I'm sick, then I get slandered.

If I go even though I'm sick, I get slandered.

So the conclusion is, I go to school, get slandered, and infect everyone with my germs :)

I got two demerits when I reached school today, oh great. I was like five picoseconds late. I was going to go "Go fuck yourself with your demerit forms la!" but since they were my friends, I couldn't do a thing. I mean, they were just doing their job. But for a moment there I really wanted to kill them. *inserts demonic face*

I felt damn left out when everyone got back their papers! Everyone flunked so I could have had company:( I wish I could have sat for it, flunked, and high 5 the other flunkers. Our class flunked Bio, Physics and Add Maths, everyone was upset, teachers were disappointed, yadda yadda. Seriously, no A1's at all.

I'm happy though that no one has beaten my record at Bio yet though :) I love that subject just because I was lucky enough to score A1 for it last exam! And BM too, so far whole year Bio and BM not many A1's.

Of course, the freaking government hasn't explained their new grading system thingy. We know it's A+, A- and A, but we're just blur. Sheesh la this people's efficiency.

I mean, this is my last chance to prove I'm not stupid. I flunked out my first exam, so people think I'm stupid. For my second exam, I did well but since aton of people didn't sit for it, they still think I'm stupid. I skipped this one, so the next one is the only times I can rely on to prove I'm not that dumb.

I have a dumb face. People tell me I don't look like I'm the bookish type. Dorea says I look smarty when I wear specs that's all.

All the people who were sick and skipped the exam got a bit worried that for streaming they would divide our total averages by 4 instead of 3(considering we skipped 1 exam) but thankfully Pn Carol cleared us up. She does consider the fact that we're all sick and dying and that's no excuse for putting us in a lower class.

I got bombed by Pn Kong for painting my nails(still got residue) and dyeing my hair as she says the chemicals aren't good for me. Well, I'm not a very organic person, I would choose high heels and a dislocated spine over being short but healthy. I'm very vain, well, I'm Libra, what to do.

By the way, I don't like snide insinuations like "Walao you people so keh kiang think that you're so good at KK kah? You think you're so popular until you hog all your activities get all your merits until don't give other people chance? You think you're so smart meh? You people think you so smart, actually not so smart after all, look at your results." Sorry if I misinterpreted, but I don't like these comments. It's up to us how many KK we want to join. Sorry if we don't live up to your expectations, but don't go blaming it all on our participation in KK or insulting us for wanting to join as many things as we can as we're only in Form 4 once.

Anyway, haters make me feel special, that's all I can say. Only legendary people have haters, if I have them too I don't mind because it just means I am famous or infamous, whatever, it's WAAAY better than being a nobody with everyone liking you. I'd rather be well-known and say I'm smart, I just went to Australia, I'm well-known and proud of it and yes, I'm bitchy, so? LOL, people keep asking me to blog about stuff they tell me or not to blog about stuff they tell me.

I sweated out my fever already. I only have one more thing to say...

I'm so sorry darling. I feel so stupid and there is no way I can do or say anything as it's too late. I can only say this here. I'm so sorry for everything. Every day, no matter what I do, at some point the thought of you crosses my mind. I'm so sorry and I regret. I know you think I'm a bitch and I don't care what you think about me as long as you finally know that I do care. It's too late, and I'm sorry for my behaviour. There's a gnawing in my stomach, it hurts in my heart, but I think that to do anything would only make it worse. I finally know now that no one is perfect, not me or you, and I shouldn't have expected you to be a perfect person. I should have loved and appreciated you as you are. I didn't mean what I did :( I wish I could explain more but I don't know how to find you and face you when I know you either hate me or don't care anymore. Sorry again.

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