I have been thinking(lol never a good way to start a post). Anyway, I just realised that I don't really suck that much as a girlfriend. Yes, I am a da nu ren type. The one who must control everything, and never just listens meekly to the boyfriend.

Have you realised that in relationships, the one who doesn't love that much gets the best treatment? In all the relationships I know, always is one partner just like that biasa biasa nia, the other desperate and in love.

My friends say I treat my boyfriends like shit, throwing tempers, obsessing and going nuts over the smallest things, and giving cold treatments and picking fights. Actually, I am a gaduh gaduh sayang type. I like going "Loser what you up to?" and getting a "Loser you!" back. Then I will go"Meanie!" and he will go "Aww I love you." OR something like that =.=" paiseh now.

Anyway, I think I need work on that. Since most guys don't like it, they want a docile, sweet girl. I like goofy guys whom I can joke with. I also have a knack of going "I see a cute guy..." and making the guy damn pissed off and jealous. I know, I know I'm nuts.

But, one thing about me is that I am caring. I devote a lot and I care. I care. Guys who are sweet and loving but are never interested in what you're saying, or give lukewarm attention, and never are there for you, they suck. Examples are guys who ask their girlfriends to "Cheer up!" or go "Go sleep dear if you're sick." Or guys who won't sacrifice a bit for you, won't sleep late just once for you, when you would do the same. I would.

WORST EXAMPLE: A guy who says "Hugs dear, forget abt it la." when you ask them for help.

I know guys not good at comforting, but come on la! We seek you for your advice, or just a comforting ear, not just sweet words. Then there are guys who go "What to do, just forgive and forget.." FUCK LA YOU IDIOTS.

I care always. I am always interested. That's one good thing about me. I call them immediately when they're sick. I am forceful, bossy, etc "You, go to bed NOW. " But I care. I am passionate. Dispassionate relationships hurt the most because INDIFFERENCE means you don't really care. When someone hurts my guy, I go "Wtf who is it? I go find him." I get angry, I take control, because I care.

Hint to guys, never go "Dear, just forget about that person.." Go, "Dear, I go beat up that asshole now!"

Further analysis shows that there is one consistent pattern in my love life.

A. I fall in love with someone who is in love with my best friend or whom my best friend loves.
B. I fall for someone who is a playboy or whom is infamous for having dated a popular girl or who is just plain incompatible for me, e.g. too tall, Malay(no racism intended), or whom my friends hate and won't bless, and I dono how to tell them.

Then...

A. I help the boy to hook up with my best friend, which hurts me so much. Or, I force the guy to go after my friend, and they hook up and are completely oblivious to the fact that I am hurting so much seeing them together. Or, I give the number of the guy I like to my friend. i.e. "No la, I don't like him lah!!! I give you number lah!!"

B. The guy plays me, or else I get too stressed over all the public discord, and then BOOM.

All the NICE guys who have been interested in me are either just not my type, are boring, I don't love them or just plain it wouldn't work out.

I hate dating people's exes :(

Nevertheless, I'm sure you guys have forgotten how I look by now. So, a few photos to refresh your brains. Australia post long overdue!




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