Walao our whole class fail this term. Call me a exaggeration but even I didn't sit for it also i feel depressed. I mean, we're the freaking first class at least we have to live up to it. I suppose CS dragged us all down. But it's scary and really disappointing how we did. The teachers, us ourselves all feel depressed.

A school is always judged by their first class. If a first class student all get C's and D's, then obviously that school isn't very good. Normally I don't give a damn how much the school is judged, but I'M in the freaking first class and the NUMBER ONE thing I hate is having my INTELLIGENCE judged and looked down upon.

The class flunked 5 subjects, or at least got horrible marks for it. The top scorers for these subjects had marks that would barely deem passable on a regular basis. I'm sure these people would agree. Top is top la, but the quality of that 'top' is really low.

There's no excuse saying "Oh, we got CS ba", or "Add Maths memang like that". Doing that can instil some comfort, but still, it's really URGH, just stop making excuses for yourself, you flunked!!!

Add Math: Highest is like 84? The rest majority 60+ and then it goes downhill. We scored 98 once.
Physics: Highest is like 83? Then all the 30's and 60's and the in between. We used to score 90's.
Chemistry: Sorry to say that despite that there is an A1 (85), there are also 20+.
Bio: 83 is highest, most of the top people got within that range to 70+. After that, downhill..
BM: Saddest case ever. Highest only 71. So freaking sad and nerve-wracking because teacher OCD-ly arranged the papers according to how high you got. So after 71, it got really really low.

Ok, I'm beating myself up though I didn't sit for this exam. Well, beating yourself up is the only way to go forth.

If you keep saying to yourself, 'Never mind, not that bad la. Everyone fail also. Not SPM ba. Next test try harder. *insane cheerful smile*". WHAT THE FUCK LA. This kind of thinking I hate. It's nice to cheer yourself up but being satisifed by BEING STUPID and not pushing yourself harder?? By the time you know it, it is SPM and you have failed. How's that fucker?

Still, I can't wait for the next exam so we can show teachers that 4SC1 is far from STUPID. By the way, I dreamt I got 57 for Moral. I also dreamt I had lunch with someone =(

STUPID = LOSER.
LOSER = FAILURE
FAILURE = KENA KUA SOI
KENA KUA SOI = ENA HATES THAT.

I've got three recommendations for my peeps!

1. My Sister's Keeper by Jodi Picoult.
2. Gabrielle Chi's English essay about Xiaxue. A refreshing break from the standard I-love-my-mum-dad-grandpa drivel. Wished I'd sat for it!! I love Xiaxue too!
   
3. Jon Schidmt's version of Love Story Meets Viva La Vida. It's one of the most beautiful sounds ever.

I feel sad that I didn't sit for it!! I know sounds crazy but I want to share the grief and share the happiness also!! Pity I didn't.

HATE the Malaysian media for being so freaking biased. Everyone lives in fear of saying their thought aloud. It's like we are living under a tyranny.

Remember in Primary School we are always saying, "Eh, cannot tell anybody if not the Prime Minister come catch you!!"

Normally we would be saying something like, "Look at this guy;s beard." or "All our PMs wear specs!" Then either teacher or someone else would order us to respect them. Or not police come catch us.

Sweats. Now some Australian pictures which are so long overdue that I am saddened by my degree of laziness.


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