I can't possibly be more random than I am right now. HAHA I am freaking PMS-ing and feeling really emo I tell you!! HAHA hey Ahmad I'm going to publish our convo here because it's damn funny and because I know you read this.

[GR'J]J1N :	. u seriously cnt take a joke cnt u?
(2:37 AM) [GR'J]J1N :	but theres ntg wrong with ur thighs to be honesy honest*
(2:37 AM) Twinkly Toes:	haha im jus jk
(2:38 AM) Twinkly Toes:	do u see me stoning u?
(2:38 AM) [GR'J]J1N :	right.....!
(2:38 AM) Twinkly Toes:	no right? lol if i was so prude
(2:38 AM) Twinkly Toes:	i wil like wear the arab women thingy dang whats it called shit umm SHIT my brain fail
(2:38 AM) Twinkly Toes:	SHIT I AM STUPID SAVE ME

Also , if you don't think it's possible for me to be even more vain, then check out this video! Yes I'm going to get fake double eyelids HAHAHA I am vain right wtf I don't care I sound like a whackjob don't I.



Anyway, moving on to more serious stuff. I am being stalked by this stranger guy via phone. I am pretty sure it's a bitch from school but for the benefit of the doubt let's pretend it's a guy. He has been abusing me with crude language like "Fuck you cheap slut, you go fuck guys la" and "You are damn flat chested you know haha sorry lo, just go fuck guys ", and "I'm going to beat you up bitch" and when I ask him to leave me alone he says "Why you cheap bitch? I want to stalk you cannot meh? You fucking whore".

I am so going to call the police. I've done it before, calling the police. That time it was much less offensive, and the policeman kindly told me that it might just be my friend and call back if it gets worse.

WTF. Anyway, that aside, another pet peeve of mine.

I really hate guys using me to get to know my friends. I know my friends are really pretty, but WTF don't act like I don't exist it's hurtful you know. I love my friends and I' m happy that guys pay attention to them but hey, I'm human too, not invisible. So don't use me to get to know my friends THANK YOU, you jackasses.
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&the time is 4:25 PM
posted by Ena ♥

Haha another one. I love going out, seriously I can't stand home for prolonged periods. Anyway, Francis agreed to pick me up from Stutong after a lot of begging. My dad was passing through that area so he decided to drop me at Choice Daily so that he could pick me up. For a new driver, he was pretty okay.

I did my makeup in the car, one day I'm going to have a tutorial. I really love it. Once I get a camera I'll show you, my phone camera sucks. It's a big thick but I look really babydoll and my eyes are like a gazillion times bigger imho. Haha. It's good for Japanese pose photos with the spidery lashes and eyeliner and silver corners for bigger size. Seriously, a little silver in the inner lower corners really widens your eyes.

Well, we had some sushi and sightseeing. It was MY FIRST TIME at Spring with perfect eyesight. I seriously adore contacts, I am so much better at them now. There aren't much clothes worth buying there. We met up with Chris (stalker!) who joined us at Secret Recipe where we ate, gossiped and had a lot of Chocolate Indulgence. We saw Marcellia and Catherine. Sighs, Cat's brothers weren't around!

We started camwhoring on the upper floor and also in front of the lingerie shop. We dared Chris to take pictures in front of the bikini display. Check them out in Facebook, lols. Chris accompanied us till we got home respectively, what a sweet guy he is. (I hope you're reading this, I want to be chia-ed!)

Now photos! My eyes were really pretty today!





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&the time is 10:58 PM
posted by Ena ♥

Nothing much except to say I haven't finished my homework. Haven't even start. Miss frog guts. My contact lenses make me feel like I can conquer the world.

Getting used to contacts!3 minutes to put in, 5 to take out.






Go here too, it's amusing. Not suitable for under 18 haha but I'm not 18.
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&the time is 7:55 PM
posted by Ena ♥

It was sooo fun! I loved touching everything and feeling the texture. Jessica bought a giant frog for RM 20 and several other groups had very small ones. I felt up the giant frog and it was so fat. We first chloroformed the frog and then pinned the arms to the sides of the board. I alternated between Guine's frog and then Jess's frog. We compared the organ sizes and it was SO cool. We dismantled the frog piece by piece. I had a turn to cut out a gill but it wasn't the same as the fish was dead!

The big frog needed a hammer to be crucified. It was so muscly and yucky. Jess cut it open and we stirred at its insides. The heart was still beating as we cut it out and placed it on the board. In the end Guine took out everything, the "cincau", the "sago" and then the eyeballs. The frog was as flat as a piece of paper by then and it was so cool I don't know if they hacked the spine or not but we stirred for the brianand played with the tongue. I doubt the frog had a brain, it was too small. But Jess's frog might have had one. Hers was SUPER big and she kept hacking at it like crazy. Haha I love Bio. I touched pancreas, spleens, gills, muscles, hearts, intestines, kidneys, rectums, livers, stomachs, eyeballs and brains of frogs and fishes today! My hands feel so experienced.









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Been stalked a lot by cyber freaks. Especially today. Fuck these guys who are sick in their heads and messaged me because I am rumored to have "big boobs" (I don't) and am "slutty"(am still a virgin). Then there are guys who chastise me for swearing. WTF. I like to swear, it's a way to express myself. Girls aren't supposed to swear la? EDUCATED PEOPLE DON'T SWEAR? Well dude, I am a thousand times more worldly than you. Beat that wimp.

I have been thinking. If you are attacked and you fight back, does that make you tough and determined and wilful or juvenile and childish and petty?

If you don't fight back? Are you mature and noble or are you weak and cowardly?

Having problems with contact lenses. WTF.
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&the time is 11:21 PM
posted by Ena ♥

Yes, today is one of the best days of my life since 5 years ago, when I was diagnosed with hereditary myopia.

Yes I'm makin git sound like a disease, but IT IS. Sorry if I offend you people out there who enjoy wearing specs (FREAKS!) but what else do you call it? Your eye growing elongated and damaging your eyesight? Isn't that ABNORMAL? Like, your eye has MUTATED and you're handicapped?

I hate being the victim of an incurable disease. In fact, I'm not going to have children because I might pass on my myopia genes to my babies.

Anyway, after Bio class, we went to Hopoh because Chai canceled on us. Clare brought me to her optician, and it was excruciating.

I have 400 degrees damage both eyes. Wtf. Anyway, my eye wasn't big enough. Like, the lens couldn't go in. I had to pull really hard and still I kept blinking and looking away. I almost cried. It was super embarassing also and took around 35 minutes to fit in. It is so freaky to touch your eyeballs!

It was as if I had been given a new lease on life. I could order food by myself, identify my own car, I could appreciate the beauty of the world. I felt as if I had just opened my eyes for the first time and I was able to enjoy every petal, every blade of grass.

That was a..dramatic paragraph.

Anyway, I had really pretty eyes with contacts. i tried to electrocute every guy who walked past. Haha. Seriously, my eyes have never been bigger.

We went back to school and catwalked.





Next we went to Star and got tickets for Orphan. I bought false lashes and we walked around pitifully while waiting for 3.15. We got in and it was terrible.

I give u a synopsis..a couple adopted a girl from an orphanage. She's sweet and cute but actually she threatens her siblings and gets them to do crimes with her. She bashes nun's heads with bricks and sets fire on stuff while sabotaging her mum till she's kicked out of the house. The brother ends up in hospital after being burned, thrown from a treehouse and smothered by her. The deaf-mute sister is stupid and goes along.

Voila! She's a psych patient from Estonia and is actually 33 but has the body of a little girl. Her MO is seducing the father, then if she fails she'll kill him and burn the house. She fails, then stabs him to death and then the mum arrives and climax! Then they go out to a pond and the ice cracks and mum crawls out regardless of pneumonia or the knife wounds and little girl hangs on to her feet. She kicks her and she drowns.

It sucks. It is not scary even! They play the scary music then zoom to show the girl drinking milk and giving him a scary look. WTF. It's such a lame thriller.

1. There's no ghost.
2. There's no constant blood and guts.
3. Not many sudden scares.
4. Too much prelude.

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&the time is 8:22 PM
posted by Ena ♥

I use wtf waay too much. I say it, I type it, I write it. Wtf.

Just went to Kuching Festival just now!! Going to upload photos as soon as Florence, Shelly and Clare post it up. Just wait. The only photo I have is this:


I'm heading myself for ANOTHER round of imminent heartbreak. Just great. Had a great weekend, slept till noon and sleep at 4.

Bought 2 irons at Supersave. They cost RM 13.99. And no, Shelly, I did not buy them for your birthday present!!!


I got a new eye makeup style. I can't show you clearly because I have a arse-fucked phone and I can't take any good photos. But I seriously think it makes my eyes bigger!

Wtf I know I wear more makeup than most girls I know. Don't tell me to jaga my skin because I have nice skin and I want to damage it wtf. Some more I target to be ah lian haha.




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&the time is 10:03 PM
posted by Ena ♥

After so many years of wearing glasses, I'm finally going to take the plunge and use contact lenses. This will be my first time, even though some people I know have been using them for many years. I'm a virgin!

I know their are many cons, but you don't understand the pain of wearing glasses. Some people do fine with glasses and find no trouble with them at all. But it's hell for me.

It's hard to walk around without good vision. I can't see shuai ge, I can't look for clothes, I can't enjoy scenery, I can't recognize people, even my own parents. With glasses, it's so clear but I am so painfully aware of my glasses that I walk with my head parallel to the ground.

Especially lately, not wearing glasses has induced migraines in me.

Let me share with you something. In Australia and Melaka, I couldn't even order food I liked because I couldn't read the menu. At Melaka, Shelly and I went into Starbucks and I was whispering to her asking for her to read out the menu. I felt so HELPLESS. When I bump into people from school I never wave, because I can't see them.

Don't tell me it serves me right for being vain and perasan. Yes I know that I am perasan for thinking that everyone's looking at me when I wear glasses. But I just have low self-esteem that way. I value looks over comfort. I'll probably limp and not wear crutches if I sprain my ankle. I don't even wear my retainers out anymore.

Why should I live with a handicap when I can fix it right? With contact lenses.

Some more when you wear glasses you can't even see your eye make up. LOL.


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&the time is 12:33 PM
posted by Ena ♥

WTF I am so misunderstood lah!!! It's all your fault Edith Lee. ALL YOUR FAULT. Aduh my reputation is so down the drain!! I am being thought of as a psycho!! it's all this dude Kee Fung's fault. KEE FUNG CAN YOU HEAR ME?? I AM PUBLICLY SLANDERING YOU!! I die liao la. Go out have to wear mask. Kuching's a small place. There are only eight or so schools in middle of town. SOON WORD WILL SPREAD. ADUH!!

Moving on to normal musings, I really despise people who like to threaten suicide. I am emo. everyone has emo moments. But don't over-emo,it's just DISGUSTING.

"Haih..I'm so sad..life's not worth living liao. I know everyone hates me so I might as well go kill myself. I really think I'm going to die.."

Sure, go off yourself because I cannot stand it liao. Thank God none of my friends are like that, because even if they're my friends and they're depressed, but if they say the above line I will lose my temper. So drama queen for what. ANNOYING.

Anyway, I think people who say are pregnant but have a illness and have to abort to save their life but don't, are stupid. I am not pro-abortion or anything, but baby can make again, you cannot. Seriously, it's so stupid it's like Jehovah's Witnesses cannot have blood transfusion or what. Don't give me crap about how mother loves child, because it is nothing but a foetus, not a baby, just a lump of underdeveloped flesh and not worth you killing yourself for. It's not heroic but DUMB.

I'm not in a favourable mood now. Sighs.
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&the time is 9:58 PM
posted by Ena ♥

Shit I was too late!!!!! Dammit. Haha don't ask. What's done is done.

Today started out rainy and nice and turned into a monstrously hot day. I almost fainted. I am so pissed off right now because I was picked up late. I am so WTF LAH!!! Don't tell me to be considerate at my Dad because wtf, I care shit about being considerate, I just fucking want to be picked up.

I feel so dead. I want to eat. I want him. I want to sleep. I want to skip school tomorrow. I want to die. I want to laugh. I want credit.

FUCK= Friends You Can Keep.

So Edith, you are a FUCK.
You too Clare, you are a FUCK.
Shelly, you are a great FUCK!

Been having the same recurring dream.. Kissing someone on top of the bridge at Kuching Fest. WTF I don't know who. It's just weird.

I've been thinking about what kind of guys are the best. Now that I think of it, being sweet doesn't matter. Being sweet is the easiest thing to do ever. All you need is a mouth and a brain. Sometimes, you don't even need a brain.

Aduh.
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&the time is 2:07 PM
posted by Ena ♥

What a dramatic day has occurred. Still, things are less than cleared up. As always, it is easier to do than to undo, plus the difference in opinion some more. One side thinks they are right, one side thinks the other is wrong, they both make excuses and underneath all the civility is all the cynicism and all that. I feel so two-faced LMAO. I hate complicated things seriously. I miss my days as a ball of cells floating around in Mom's trusty old uterus. When all my worries involved mitosis and leeching off my Mom's nutrients.

With that aside, it has been a very proverbial day, what with my endless flow of prose. "You laugh at me because I am different, I laugh at you because you are all the same". "Di mana ada kemahuan di situ ada jalan". "Kuman di seberang laut nampak, gajah di depan mata tidak nampak".

Cikgu Elisza must feel proud. There's extra classes in the holidays. Some Maju Cemerlang crap. We're planning to go cruising the Sarawak River after class. By cruising I mean riding in the trusty sampans that have been around for decades.

Apart from that, I feel pretty bristled today. I mean totally no offence to either prefect nor student, but I feel that if there are perks to being a prefect's friend, then I want in too. How come I can't do what others do? No I am not one for just following rules if others aren't doing the same. Either I join them in breaking the rules, or we all get reprimanded. It's not fair that I am singled out. I don't want to nag, but you either close one eye or open both, no such thing as opening HALF AN EYE.

Sometimes I don't get myself. Today was a cold, biting, end-of-the-world kind of rainy day. These are the days when I miss him the most. *Sighs* mlm me!

Top 5 Things I Really Want Now

1. Contact lenses. I cannot stand spectacles. It makes me feel HANDICAPPED. That's the only word for it. I don't want to be another constant spec-wearer. Because I look like dog shit when I wear them.
2. Hair extensions. I think I've ranted enough about my hair.
3. MONEY!! It is the most important thing in the world. You can buy a house but you can't buy a home right? But, if you don't have a house, how can you have a home?? See?? Money RULES!
   
4. Sex. Okay, fine, maybe love. True sappy love.
5. A genie who will grant me 100 wishes.

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&the time is 2:02 PM
posted by Ena ♥

Seriously, I hate it when people make sarcastic remarks about my trip to Australia. Just because I was there doesn't mean I am high and mighty.

"You go Australia, doesn't mean you so smart."

"Is your brain still left in Australia?"

"Some people go Australia think they so cool la."

LOL. You sound jealous if anything's the case. Blame me if I am sensitive, but I do not appreciate your sarcasm at all. Talk about abuse of authority.

I mean, Linda did her homework while she was talking, so she said "I don't appreciate people who do work while I am still teaching." *pointed look* Then to me, "I don't appreciate people who daydream when I am teaching. Did you leave your brain in Australia?" *pointed looks*

LOL, make up your mind, woman. People do work while you're talking, gets scolded. People look at you while you're talking, gets insulted. WTF.

Yes I am venting and I don't care much that I am. Sue me if you want to be unprofessional. If you have the right to make degrading comments about me in class, I have every right to make degrading comments about you on my blog.

I don't care how important is the subject you teach, either it's Political Science or Arts and Crafts, but I demand respect in return to the respect I give my teachers.

Some more I didn't even win anything in Australia, wtf. Some more I wasn't doing anything but looking up at you while you ranted at us. It's not personal because I know the nicest teachers get grumpy at 4Sc1 even when they're not ovulating, but I DO NOT LIKE PERSONAL AND INSULTING COMMENTS DIRECTED AT ME WHEN I HAVE NOT PROVOKED THEM AND I AM NOT ONE TO REMAIN SILENT WHILE BEING TRAMPLED UPON.

Speaking of that, we have an EST assignment, which is to write what you admire in your classmates. It's not hard because even in people you don't like, there's always something you admire. Whether it's big boobs or humor or niceness or cheerfulness, there is something.

There is always something to be admired in everyone. You don't have to like it but you sure admire it. Take Peter Parker for example, I despise men in red suits pretending to be spiders, unless they're from Krypton with huge penises or have reindeer and live in the North Pole, but I sure admire him for being able to climb up buildings like that.

Apart from that, I've learnt that everyone deserves a good cry every time they menstruate, but other than that let's just embrace the world for what it is and not expect life to always give you what you want especially when you yourselves are in the wrong and expect others to give way to you. It's just not the way it works, unfortunately. Life is unfair, so suck it up and hold your head high, it's a way to save dignity and move on with life.

Not that it's embarassing to cry or tune in your emotions or anything ( being Oprah-politically-correct) but we're all 16 now and no longer playing tag near a sandbox.

I used to cry whenever I bumped my knee on a table corner but now I just hold it in till I get home because showing your emotions in front of others no longer gets you noticed and comforted, but just shows you're weak plus you make others uncomfortable. And my image counts more to me than anything, I would do anything to appear to others that I am young, strong, resilient.

LOL that was a Choral Speaking line. I miss my younger days. I feel so old now, though I have a lot more growing up to do. Both mentally and I hope, physically. I want to grow cleavage and 3 more inches.
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&the time is 1:54 PM
posted by Ena ♥

I think I am weird. I've been through my archives and there are some MSN nicks that re just plain funny.

	ɴαɴα *~*Roses

Lamenting the Loss of Michael Jackson
Raining Heavily
BabyDarling xoxo
Crying•••
SmiliesSmilies
Silver Lining
You қηoω You ʟove Me
I fell like I have just seen a light, and I realize everything now..I feel old!
HOME SWEET HOME!!
Bound for Melaka
LoveyDovey
Saya Seekor Siput
Baa Baa Black
Ena Has New Eyeliner!
Ena Rocks
13th October 2009
2 months 8 days!
Kantoi! Sowee~:
I'm Shelly xD
Ena's Back!!! xD
I Am Grossly Fat
I'm so Hurt
I am a BAby Pumpkin
I Hate Liars..They make Me Sad
2 months 9 days!
Who Am I Gonna Marry In Ten Years??:(
FATE DESTINY WHATEVER, THANKS!!!!:D
RM 133..then I am chio
Stop buying my pets!
Jerebu

Now I am Barack Obama.

I love MSN.

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&the time is 11:18 PM
posted by Ena ♥